If I don’t count Friday when is the local bazaar day, I am living in a generally calm and silent neighborhood. When I give ear to outside, I can easily hear tweets of birds. If I give more attention, I can even distinguish the sounds of at least five different kinds of birds. Doves, crows, gulls, swallows, nightingales, etc…
Frankly said, even though I have been living in the same apartment for five years, I have been aware of that just for the past year. Most probably, I was hearing only horn sounds or street noise before. It is because I didn’t have the awareness of orientation of my conscious attention at that time. My mind was always in auto pilot. So it could easily find the similar things outside look like itself to bring on my level of perception. When I learned to orient my attention consciously, after then I met with the bird population living in my neighborhood:)
I have not written for a long time. Nearly two months passed since my last post. Indeed I have written couple of them in the meantime but I didn’t post them. Why? Simple, because I didn’t feel like:)
Writing my blog is a total arbitrary action for me. I do it when I feel like; I don’t do it if I don’t feel like. I write without the feeling of obligation. I have no limitations for its timing, content or length. I really like this very much since this is called freedom.
Have you ever thought about how much we feel total freedom in our life? How frequently we taste feeling of freedom?
When a question comes to your mind, what do you do to find the answer? Formerly, we used to look at the encyclopedias, or ask it to the wise men. Today, there is a new concept called “Google” in our lives. We simply write the keywords into the search bar and push the enter button. And here are the thousands of results are waiting for us. If we narrow down the searching criteria, it is easier to pick up the right answer that we are looking for.
On the other hand, there are some questions that even Google cannot find the answer. These are the particular questions about us. Most of the time, rather than a clear question, they indicates their presence as a huge sense of uncertainty growing inside. We know that the only person on earth can give the answer is “ourselves”. But the question is “how?”
Is there anybody in your life whom you cannot forgive? Once upon a time, there were in my life. Oh, how much upset, hurt and angry I was:( The reason of why I feel like that is two consecutive experiences took place in different areas of my life. You can never believe how long I continued to carry that extremely intense anger in my heart. When I went hospital later on for general check-up, I learned I have two big stones in my gall bladder. And I wasn’t surprised when I read the mental cause of gallstone is bitterness and condemnation.
“Loving yourself” is always the first item in “to do” lists of how to live a better life revealed in all personal development books. Everybody says they love themselves, but very few people live their life according to their desires. Therefore, we should question the accuracy of the answer to the question “Do I really love myself?” But how do we know if we love ourselves or not? Is there a measure for this? Most importantly, if we realize we don’t love ourselves enough, how to love, where to begin?
It is said that, the outer world is a reflection of the inner world. I totally believe in that phrase is right from my own experiences.
Do you have any fears that affect your life and couldn’t overcome it? If yes, do you want to conquer them and liberate yourself?
Before reading the 1.st item below, please don’t easily say that “I do not have any fear”. Even this phrase could be a fear which is masked by denial and keep you away from confronting with your fears. Having a fear is not a weakness. The real weakness is riding a life as a prisoner of fear.
A few days after new year eve I was surfing on internet when a video shared in facebook page of the blog that I am following caught my attention. It was about “why people begin every new year with lots of resolutions that cannot been achieved and postponed to the next year”. For instance, doing sports regularly, healthy nourishment; lose weight, saving money aside every month, etc. Until today, I also put such goals for myself but unfortunately i haven’t been successful at all.
Have you ever asked yourself “what is my life purpose”? Were you satisfied with your answer? Or did you think “I am sucked up in my daily routine so much that I don’t question if my life has a meaning or not”.
It was one of the most difficult questions to answer for me. So much that, when i think about it (during the most troublesome times), i was saying “With so much sorrow I can not contemplate about it” and try to get rid of the thought immediately. People feel powerless against unanswered questions. Especially this question is about you.
How often do you observe yourself and your sensations on events that happen to you everyday? Or is your average day so monotonous that you don’t notice what’s around you?
In fact, “living in the moment” is something that while we are living our life we keep our observer within always alert and active. If the observer within is sleeping, we are living our lives without understanding like sleep stupor. But if the observer is alert, we are riding a life that we are aware of each passing moment and ourselves.
So how do we observe ourselves?
What words does your family use in order to express their love and appreciation for you? Mine was “my intelligent girl”. This might sound crazy right now but at that time these words which influenced my subconscious and led me to develop a plain logic. That’s why I began to give more value to professions which require intelligence. At that time my reference to measure intelligence was OSS which is university entrance exam in Turkey. A high score I get means a good career I will have and win my family’s approval.
My Library
Planned books:
- Unlimited Power by Anthony Robbins
Current books:
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Do the Work by Steven Pressfield
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The Presence Process: A Journey into Present Moment Awareness by Michael Brown
Recent books:
- A Philosopher’s Notes by Brian Johnson
- Conversations With God-3 by Neale Donald Walsch
- Zero Limits: The Secret Hawaiian System for Wealth, Health, Peace, and More by Joe Vitale, Ihaleakala Hew Len
- Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill
- Hypnotizing Maria by Richard Bach
Philosophers Notes
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